Peace

First, i would like to emphasis something.
I know u are here...
I would like to tell u that
i din say anything wrong and fake things..
im juz saying da truth..

Second, blog is use to record my daily events....
and for sure can write anything i like....
I do not think write my daily things at here is anything wrong.

p/s: i not want to argue with u....
i did not say anything in life..
i juz share in heree...
here is my space...

Actually da one u dislike is me,
da one u hate is me..
u just focus on me....
don't over da limit...

Tyiing is ever ur best friend...
( i don't know do u ever treat her as ur best friend, but she really treat u as her best friend )
u dislike me n hate me juz focus on me...
u may show black face to me or say something bad about me..
u may treat me transparent or juz ignore me...
But Tyiing is really treat u as her best friend...
u may not to over da limit...
u can still treat her good...

I think u won't know forever that
That day x'mas eve Tyiing is really hurt and sad...
she din say anything to me..
But i can felt it-hurt and sad...
If your best friend treat u like that day wad u treat us.
how do u feel?
Just think about it.

I know when u see this,
surely u will getting mad...
but i still need to emphasis that
i am not scolding u or wad...
i just want to let u know...
focus on me..
and think about others feeling before u do something to hurt anyone.

And i wish you can 公私分明 out stuff no need to show out.
In school, when u meet me,
u can just treat me transparent..
i don't care.
In Leo Club, when meeting or need to do anything,
i hope u can 公私分明

Then da rest, i'll just treat u as a 路人甲
( This is wad u want right? Don't worry, i'll do that )
I wish u can do that too.
Thanks~

X'mas

Merry Chrristmas to readers!
Today is my sister 9th birthday
Hapii Birthday to Her!

Early in da morning,
daddy mummy and sister go to u-park...
i dislike go to u-park,
somemore i went to countdown yesterday
for sure cannot wake up
=p =p

After that we go to Sunshine Farlim to have our lunch.
just RM1 per plate only.....
wow..so cheap
XDDDD

Then we go to Pisa...
nothing to buy at there =.=
Then we go to Queensbay mall.

Actually this year x'mas quite boring...
nothing special...

sigh~

X'mas Eve

About 7pm,
Tyiing suddenly message me...
She said that can go already..her cousin can pick us go to gurney..
so..at last i also got go...

Met many friends there...
quite happy and fun..
but just for me..
For Tyiing and Lii...no..
i do not know wad they want..

they said too bored and nothing to do =.=
i like noisy..
At there,
can see a lot of friends and people..
they all playing spray..very fun...
i like this feeling.

=p =p

Then,
we are sitting down..
Suddenly Irene walk through with 'hng' sound,
she just like a leader,
she walk in front then follow by her friends...
she din say hi to us...but 'hng'...

my fire start to burn...

But i just can act like nothing...

Tyiing ask us,
would like to join them or not..or else we just three people and have no fun right now..
Lii is her cousin..
for sure, she would like to join..
I have no choice...
i argue with her but they no..
i should not selfish...

somehow i go with Tyiing and Lii,

they want to join..i should follow..
so we go to join them...

She act busy...
maybe she is really busy, i don't know..
She keep walking here and there..
and keep talking with her friends...
like a business man who having a meeting or making a big business with big company...
we just transparent.

Her friends all folow her kam lan kuan..

Tyiing and Lii talk to them but they act cool..
when i see it, i would like to slap her...
she this kam lan face!

If dislike us to join just say..

wad for do this kam lan face?

To show that she is famous?

because everyone follow her..everyone though she is correct?

Or to show that we like so stupid?

because she do this kam lan kuan already but our face still so thick want to join?

Not everyone must follow her..
and not everyone must forgive her..
Unfortunatly,
still have many stupid friends treat her as princess.

still have many stupid guys like her..

I don't want to say anything
because it just would end up with unhappy and argue..

Luckily..finally..
Tyiing realized that.
so we split out..

Joelyn also doesn't know wad to say anymore..
she got no eyes to see =p

Is okay, i understand.
I do not dare to tell Junior about this..
because....he quite side her ones..
But why i told Joelyn?
because I trust she would understand..
When i see her message...
i know that although sometime she angry to her,
but...they are still relative..
they are good cousin wad...

I not angry with them..
i understand...
i realized everything at that moment.
LOL

Actually i earlier already understood..

that's why i wont trust anyone..

Anyone would be betrayer anytime amy moment...

p/s: I not mean Joelyn is betrayer...please don't misunderstand my meaning.

Then,
everything fine after split..

At gurney drive,
they spray da car, shake da car, throw da spray toward police........
It's a wonderful day!!!
Yeah~

About 2.30am i reached home already....
quite early for me..
but for Tying and Lii are go to da opposite...
anyway, i have fun tat day.

Thanks Tyiing's cousin can bring us go..

This is da first time i celebrated my x'mas eve with friends at gurney.

Wad Da Bad Luck I Have

I am an unlucky person.
always like that since i was born...
good luck never been beside me longer...
wadever i do just-----bad!

I hate myself!
I hate myself!!
I hate myself!!!

I never seen got one people would hate his/her ownself...
LOL
i laugh at myself...LOL
i have nothing to say.....
i would like to leave this world....
this complicated-materialistic-confusing-secreative-selfish-unfair-cruel world...

wad i wish to get, i cannot get..
wad i wish to do, i cannot do...
wad i wish i hope,
just disappear in da air...

da thing i wish to get, i wont get forever.
da thing i wish to do, i wont do forever..

da useless person in da world,
da speechless person in da world.....
IS ME!!!!

I told myself few thousands times,,
I da most unluck person..
i cannot have any wish and hope..
i cannot have any positive mind...
because
wad i get in da end?
It's just zero..
It's just opposite of my mind...

It's just worse...

Mad

Morning, i am going to online...

after sign in MSN,

i see Tyiing's cousin online too..

But when i am looking at his personal message..

my mood suddenly from 80th floor drop until ground floor.

' x'mas juz stay at home....sleep better '

Oh my god!

why?

why like that?

Few minutes later,

Tyiing message me..

she said that today cancel.

wad im worry about, wad i do not wish to happen, wad i do not want

is all happened.

Getting mad......moody......sad......disappointed......

Blur Blur

BeeZheng told me that maybe LiPin see wrong people..

Oh ya!!

i forgot that my friend same name with me..

somemore YeeChuin just told LiPin my name without sirname..

Yeah~

I still have chance to maintain in s2...

I do not want to drop class T.T

下班!!!!!!

一波未平，一波又起

被老爸念了一整天，

晚上打算上来这诉诉苦，发发泄。

上msn时遇见弈君，

马上问她关于我昨天托她问得事。。。

她告诉了我一个

宇宙无敌惊天动地

让我听了思觉失调的大消息!!!

我下班了!!!!!!

明年我下了science 3!!!

我知道今年是我不够用功，

考试是准备不够充足，

我知错了!

我不要下班!

一直以来我都不奢望上班，

我只不要下班!!!!!

我不要!!!

不要不要不要!!!!!!

真的不要!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

新眼镜

昨天配了一幅新眼镜，
RM298...
我知道铁定被老爸骂的。。
谁知我回到家不久后便去补习，
所以他没机会骂我。

早上今天，终于骂了，
幸好我睡得迟，
其实也不是很迟啦，只是在老爸做工后才醒，
所以他也没机会骂我。

不算是骂，是念!!!!!!!!!

果然不出我所料，
中午他回来吃饭，
耳朵开始受罪了~~~
他要我还妈咪RM100,
念我配了一幅这样贵的眼镜。

其实我也不想的啊!!!!
我想要一幅像系菱的眼镜，
可是我找不到，
所以只好随便选了一幅眼镜。。。

傍晚妈咪回来，
我叫妹妹替我把RM50还给妈咪，
明天我再还她RM50.

不久后，
烦人的老爸一见到我就开始他自创的‘大道理’
真的好像消失。。。
那样他见不到我，
就不用‘念经’
为什么不让我消失??????

由于我还未还清债务，
所以我不方便出声，
我选择沉默，
一直吞声忍气。

待明天我还清了，
我就要为自己争一口气!!!!!
这次他念我，
都是在念------------
现在钱都不会赚，就会花!
还做了这么贵的眼镜!

快点还RM100给妈咪!

眼镜会做贵的，钱要妈咪给!

眼镜是我自己穿的!

我一直都保持沉默，
最后妹妹说我已经还妈咪RM50了，
这是才收声。

讲来讲去，

还不是钱在作怪?!?!?!

我还!

我又没说不还!

我还就是了!

可以了没?!

满意了没?!

X'mas eve-disappointed

At first,

Tyiing's cousin could fetch us to christmas countdown..

But now,

he said that he want to go to pub countdown with his friends..

not going to gurney to countdown...

So,

we cannot go already..

sigh~

disapppointed~

Like You (I)

Got a bit miss u..

hehexx

dunno why...

Got a bit like u..

dunno why...

I wish u would find me,

but u did not..

I wish u would miss me,

but u did not..

Really disappointed.

Luckily i am not like u much.

My 16th Birthday

Yesterday was my 16th birthday.

mummy picked us up to prangin mall..

we reached there about 11 something..

so early...nothing to do..

KarHeim had reached..

she wanted to give me my birthday present..

so we went to meet her..

she said that this present was brought from Japan.

she is a busy person..

soon, she back.

anyway

i really thanks her a lot~

muack~

hehehexx

We planned to watch a movie frst before going to eat steamboat.

but we do not know wad time LiTing and AiLyn reached..

i messaged to ask LiTing about that..

i get a big shock when i saw her message..

she said that she does not know when can come..

OMG!

before that when i invited her,she somemore comfirmed to me that she will be attend because prangin is just near her house..

okay..fine..whatever..

I watched movie with LiTyiing and KerLii first..

we watched The Day The Earth Stood Still.

before we going into da cinema,

i took back my key from melissa.

thanks you a lot~

or else i wil be get scold badly by daddy again.

i really thanks her so much..

because she came to prangin juz for the purpose to give me back my key..

after that she back home already..

3 something we had finished the movie.

LiTing and AiLyn still got no respond to me..

whatever..we going to have our lunch, steamboat.

while we were eating,

AiLyn called me..

she told me that she had reached-waiting us to finish da steamboat first only she came and join us.

however,

we really forgot the time..

eating, talking, playing.....

the time was past so fast..

we never noticed the time..

already 4.50pm

it's time to back...

actually we planned to back at 4.30pm....

omg!

i have tuition class at 6pm...

i quickly told LiTing and AiLyn about that..

they came and join us..

another two guy came with AiLyn them..

one of the guy is LiTyiing and KerLii's primary friend..

they keep asking AiLyn how did she know him..

AiLyn keep replying does not know...that's known by LiTing..

and LiTing know them at roadside...

and many nonsense reasons...

the time keep on passing away..

already 5.10pm...

did they know that taking bus need to wait ?

AiLyn asked me to skip the tuition class..

i refused.

I was getting mad..

I am serious.

we waited until 5.30pm, still got no bus!

they did not want to take teksi..

I have no idea..

I confirm that i will be late to tuition..

I called to home..

my sister picked up the phone..

she said that daddy did not back from work yet..

I asked my sister to tell daddy call me back.

juz a few minutes, my cellphone rang.

It was daddy.

he asked me that what time did i tuition..

i not dare to tell her the truth..

i said 6 something..

Daddy reached here already 6pm..

he asked me again..

what time did i tuition and why did i so late only wanna back.

i answered 6.15pm...

i wanna back early..but something stopped me..

and we eat until forgot the time..

Finally, i 6.25pm only at the tuition class.

i was the latest.

but, it is okay.

at least i could attend.

10pm , finished tuition class.

i was surprise that when i back home, still have something to let me eat.

XD XD

my favourite crab..

and sateh..

i knew that my family would not remember my birthday.

i found out the crab was given by neighbour

and

sateh was brought by mummy.

After eating, i juz going to bed..

i asked my sister to wish me one last time.

she did it xD

my key!!!!

Suddenly very miss my key...

i left it in wawa's bag at make up party..

before that i was still not really care about it..

Juz let it be..

juz wait for da moment me and wawa hang out together that time oni take back..

But now......

i really need it!

i can't wait it anymore!

i must have my key right now!

Going to thursday 3 days afterward..

It's time!

i will be going out to celebrate my 16th birthday at night..

untill midnight oni back..

but i have no key right now!

Grrr...............

Few week before i had already asked wawa bout this..

since i seldom meet her at msn..

so i decided to msg her..

Cuz i thought this is da faster and easier way to ask her..

unfortunately,i was failed!

she got no respond.

So, i decided to leave her a comment..

finally i knew that her phone had been stolen by others..

I have no way to contact her..

so juz could contact her through comment...

that's da only one way to contact her..

sigh~

Untill today..

i can't wait anymore!

asked her dat can she go out thursday..

straightly no respond to me..

If cannot go or don't want to go juz tell me merr...

no need let me wait lerr..

i will find other way to take back my key before thursday...

Thursday is a important day for me!

i can't let it go..

i wish to go out until midnight long time already..

somemore this time got someone can bring me back..

i will be going..

i want to go...

i must go....

I asked daddy to copy one more key for me today.

first, he asked me dat is it i lost it.

i answered no..juz left it in my friend's beg then.

second, he started to scold me badly.

i could juz let he scolded..i could do nothing...

he scolded till non stop....OMG!!!!!!!!!

I know that was my mistake..

but i really not purposely to leave it...

im sorii~

but..

it's too late...

it's really too late....

sigh~

I tried my best to take back my key..

because daddy do not want to copy one more key for me..

he scolded me irresponsible..key is da important to us..why so careless...

and bla bla bla~~~~

he wanted me to take back da key.

so.......

sigh~

I tried to contact melissa.

i was successful~

she said that she can take my key for me!

im so hapii~

Yeah~

but in da process, quite......

cham lerrr...

let daddy scold badly, friend also scold..scold me why suddenly change date. and so on...

sigh~~~~

Birthday?!

what so special bout my birthday?

is nothing special...

is juz quite a normal day for me....

I do not know whether i will be very hapii that day..

i do not whether is still okay for that day...

wadever..

i wish i would have a hapii birthday celebration at night.

改造自己 part 2

今天早上又去扫货鲁~
一直吵妈咪要去Lip Sin的我，
今天终于去鲁~

可是妈咪今天sot jor...
心情一直很烦躁。。。
因为她从早上8.30就一直催我和妹妹了，
直到接近10am才出门 =p

特地大老远去那里买生日时要穿的衣服。。嘻嘻~
最后买了三件~~~
XDＸＤ
花了ＲＭ９３！
幸好妈咪要和我ｓｈａｒｅ穿。。
所以只需还妈咪ＲＭ５０
虽然如此，
对我来说。。。。
还蛮心痛的～

钱啊～
实在是太缺钱了！

改造自己 part 1

今天做完工后拿了薪水顺便买了件衣服~
嘻嘻~
我好喜欢那件衣服，
每次做工时都只能看，不能买。。
好辛苦啊~
哈哈哈~
我可是用我自己的工钱买的噢~
RM30 叻~
[ 老实说，心有点痛! ]
不过，
那衣服我真的是愈看愈喜欢~~
XD XD
从现在开始，
我要努力改造自己！
我不要再像之前一样，
什么都不敢穿，
怕别人的眼光。
err..其实我还真的不是很敢穿。。哈哈哈~
我会很小心地。。。不要让别人说我变hiao!

原本打算买衣服来在我生日时穿的，
不过，
我买的这件。。。
似乎。。太。。。夸张了点~
哇哈哈哈~~~
算了，
还是留新年穿吧~
只是。。。
我生日那天该穿什么衣服呢?
aikx~

老爸好会念经哦!

假期又要补习，
不过没关系，反正已习惯了。

可是这个老师有问题的。。。
竟然要我们一个星期补三天，
有两次补四个小时! OMG!!!!
一次补两个小时。。(这我接受)
星期二和四补四个小时，
分别是4.15pm-8.15pm 和6pm-10pm

这个时间表已经上了两次。
每次星期四我都非常饿!
一点多吃午餐了要忍到晚上十点。。。
真的好好好饿~
我又不想花钱买食物吃。。
[用自己的钱!!!]
没关系啦，我能挨饿的。。。
为了钱，都可以!
=p =p

不过这件事在上个星期五让我老爸发现了!
整整念了足足。。。到今天为止是三天的‘道理经’!

这几天，
肚子好饿好饿噢~
可能是星期四饿了一整天，
过后又没把肚子满满地填饱，
所以这几天一直处在饥饿的状态。

生日

我的生日就快到了，
可是我一点都不开心。
很多人都非常渴望生日的到来，
但我却非常害怕。
已经好久好久没过生日了，
甚至忘了生日该有的心情，
生日该做的事情。

生日？
对我来说只是跟一个再也普通不过的日子一样，
没什么特别的。。
没有人会记得我的生日，
也没有人会帮我庆祝生日。
其实我也习惯，
如果突然有人要帮我庆祝，我才不知怎办才好。
哈哈！

记得我最后一次，家人帮我庆生-----------
是发生在我四年级时。。。
当时不只是帮我一个人庆生，
而是我和妹妹一起庆生。
碰巧那天是我农历的生日，妹妹阳历的生日，
所以家人就想帮‘我们‘一起庆生，
不用麻烦庆生两次嘛~
虽然说是帮我们倆一起庆生，
其实我知道最最最主要是帮我妹妹庆生。。
不过没关系，真的都无所谓~
就那之后，我再也没过生日了。

记得有一年，
那年我十四岁，Form 4，
原本打算与朋友一起出去。。
可是天公不作美，
最后只好取消了。
所以我心情不怎么好，
因为原本还以为终于长大了，可以与朋友一起出去了，
所以在自己的生日当天可以与朋友出去，
家人忘记我的生日没关系，
但是到最后。。还是不行。。。
我心情很沉重，拖着脚步走进房间。
当时大家都在客厅，
老爸见到了，
第一句话是-----------
’下雨没得出去需要这样吗？
一定要今天出去吗？‘
我什么都没说，因为我实在不想理他！
第二句话是-----------
’为什么一定要今天出去？
今天是什么日子？‘
这时我踏进了房门，
老爸也走去看了看日历。
就在这当下，我忽然控制不住自己，
我实在不想再看到这个人，
用力要关上房门。
第三句话-------------
’原来今天是你的生日，
难怪你非得要今天出去‘
边说，边用手挡住了房门。
听到这里，
我想也不想就立刻用力关上房门，
不管他在房外如何地说，如何地拍打房门，
我真的不想理他！
不会有人会记得我生日的。。。

Form 1 ,
大家都对彼此不是很了解，所以都没送彼此礼物。
Form 2，
天公不作美，出去不成，也没人记得我生日。
Form 3，
终于有人记得我生日了！
这年暑假，大家朋友们聚在一起帮我庆生。
这是我已多年失散的姐妹-----生日会
虽然只是一些心意，但对我来说，真的够了。

Form 2 时，
妈妈常说，
朋友生日都有买礼物，
可是我的生日呢？
还叫我不要这么笨。
刚好这年，真的没有任何人记得我的生日，
撇开礼物不说，就连一声’生日快乐‘都没有，
真的。。真的没有任何一个人记得我的生日。。。

今年，Form 4 ，
是有朋友记得我的生日，
可是是我约她们的。。
寿星约的，自然就是寿星请客，就像办生日会一样；
朋友为了帮寿星庆生的话，是不需要寿星主动地去约她们的。。
我真的很烦！
反正我不过生日就是了嘛~
曾经与荔和婷商量过，
也打算在redbox庆祝，
可是一想到要花很多钱就烦！
我还有很多事情需要我自己花钱的。。。
1。买手提电话
2。新年快到了，老爸只给我RM100，我还要买很多东西的呢！
3。假期老爸是没有给我零用钱的，所以假期一切开销自付
4。换新的眼镜，超过RM200，其他自付
其实我真的钱不够用。。
我的工钱一个月都没RM100
我真的很缺钱！
所以为了庆生要我花这笔钱，
我宁愿不过生日！

烦！烦！烦！
真的好烦！