Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I am emo

I am a weird person. I am an emo person. 

I don't know how to describe myself. 

Sometime I even hate myself. My life is colourless, meaningless and hopeless.

I saw my friends and strangers surrounding me are so happy with their life. I believe everyone has his/her own problems and difficulties. But they can live happily. And I? NO!

My friend asked me that why are all my posts so sad, why not I write something fun and share my happiness. What could I answer? I don't happy! How to write something happy?

My life is colourless. Attend classes, back home, ... It's a routine, a fixed routine of my life. It will never goes against the 'plan'.

Seriously I cannot blame about my life because I choose to! I am so closeness to specific things. 'Careful calculation and strict budgeting' can only describe myself. Maybe I not come from a rich family and I understand how the money come from. I work part time to earn extra money as my parent are having low salary. That's why, I understand it is very hard to earn money if I don't have a good job. In order to have a good job, I understand I should have a good qualification. In order to have a good qualification, I understand I should have good result. ... It is a long and related relationship here. Why I always think so far away? From work to study...~.~' It makes me suffer! 

Ok, back to the topic. How to happy? I don't know. What I know and I can do now is follow my routine. Just follow it. It will show the way I should go at the end. What a hopeless life!

In short, I should concentrate on the coming final examination. I hope to get higher result! I know it has a very very low probability because GPA 3.9 is my limit, I cannot achieve higher. Hence, I won't be greedy. I just hope to maintain my CGPA at distinction.

Before I'm off, I wish to redeem my 19th birthday wish since I didn't make any wish during the short celebration. I hope it is work! because these wishes are so important to me.
1. I wish my result can maintain at my desired level.
2. I wish I can get his news.



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