more serious

It's day 6 today.

Why am I still not yet recover?

Why am I getting more and more bubbles instead of getting lesser n lesser?

Damn!!! When can I recover???!!

The bubbles on my face and thigh are getting more and more bigger and pain!! 

I just realized the bubble on my face has some sort of fluid, yellowish fluid. OMG!

Please, be kind to me~ T_T

Besides, my eye problem came again! 

It's pain!! I can see a so-called bacteria is sucking my blood!!!

Besides this bacteria, my eye is swelled too.

Gosh! When can I get normal???

Post on 28th Sept

1010

一波未平，一波又起

昨天，真的有如标题说的那么糟糕，‘一波未平，一波又起’。

虽然知道一个人一生中会出水痘一次，但是万万没想到会真的发生在我身上。

之前，当身边的朋友出水痘时，我都会很乐观地说听天由命，要来就来，反正总要出一次嘛～

现在，终于出了。我却乐观不起来。

为什么在这个时候出？我要去上课，我要出席活动。

我不是位书虫，也不爱读书，我只是为成绩打拼，并不是我怕输，而是我为将来打算。

我真的不想拿病假，也不想缺席任何一堂课。我怕我会追不上。我不要成绩退步。

今天，PMO举办了我有兴趣的活动，晚上的Leo Cabinet Installation也颇有兴趣。我甚至还已经打算交通和衣着了。最终，什么都没了。呆在家里。

第一波，当然是出水痘。接下来的第二波，实在是心痛极了。

晚上睡前，发现手机出现一通未接电话，是个不知名的+8813131349。

我就奇怪。而且我竟然没听到电话有响过呀！

我害怕是他！

就在好奇心和害怕的驱使之下，不管了，我拨打了这通电话。

第一通，不通。

第二通，通了，类似客户服务的人说一大堆话。

才听了几秒就觉得不对劲，莫名其妙，就赶快挂了。

即，通话报告显示花了RM12.50！！！

王八蛋！！！无端端亏了RM12.50！！

笔于2011年9月24日

2255

Am I greedy?

People say my result is good. People say my performance is good. People are envying me. People are asking me not to humble. People are blaming me hypocritical.

Well, first of all, I would like to thank to those who praising me.

But why I still unhappy with that? I'm disappointed with that.

I shouldn't get this result/marks, I'd wasted the mark which is belong to me. ='(

Am I greedy?

I don't think so. I just want to improve myself and get better!

I still satisfy with that though I'm not so happy with that. I would say, this is my standard and level. I'd tried. Why I would miss the marks, I don't know...it is just, out of my expectation but in the range of my target, seem contradictory uhh..haha @@

___Saja spamming___

Post on 5th July
2140

Lost my way

Now, year 2 semester 1, I am so depravation! I cannot tolerate myself with this damn stupid fu*king situation!!! I am losing my way T_T

How am I suppose to describe my feeling now? This feeling is swallowing me and engulfing me day by day!!! Arghhhhh!~~~~~

How to express myself?!?! I HATE myself so much!

Why I cannot concentrate during the lectures and tutorials even though I'd told myself to do that?!

Why I don't know what are lecturers and tutors talking about?!

Why is my brain cannot work out on it?!

I am so scared! How am I going to take the tests and exam as well? How am I going to achieve my target?

I feel so frustrated that everyday attend lectures and tutorials without gaining any knowledge! How to describe uh? some sort like attend blindly, totally get no any point from the class, ...

Why I become like this? Ish!! Damn!! Fu*k!! @#$%&

No word can describe my feeling now.

Why is this semester so terrible?! Total 6 subjects are going to study, the MAIN problem is that at least 3 subjects are horrible subjects! How to study?!?!

1. English for Business-so far so good as compared to other subjects
   
2. Financial Accounting-so far so good as compared to other subjects
   
3. Ethics for Business-A LOT of things to memories, too LIFELESS subject
   
4. Money and Capital Markets-frighten by Investment last sem
   
5. Economic Statistic-hate the Indian slang so much
   
6. Basic Taxation-the lecture is so 'beh'
   

See~4 out of 6 subjects are waiting to 'die', how to control myself to LOVE them?

Please~~~~DO NOT continue like this! Wake up please! I got no any chance and excuse to fall! People are watching me to fall, I CANNOT make their wishes come true!!!

I decide to study, to do my revision EVERYDAY! No more relax and rest in my dictionary! I don't need anymore, the only thing I need the most is COFFEE!

Post on 13rd June
2215

Semester 4

Tomorrow (9th May) will be started semester 4. I got a terrible timetable!! =.=

The earliest class started to move forward this semester, which is start from 8.30am instead of 9am. Luckily there is Farlim bus service and I can take Farlim bus to reach college before 8.30am.

The latest class I got in this semster is 5.30pm. It isn't the latest class I ever had, I had finished class at 6pm in the first semester, but that time was my dad fetch me and my friend back. This time different. My dad changed job already. Although he finish work at 5pm, he just can fetch one person as he ride bike to work.

Can I so selfish to leave my friend wait 6pm college bus to Komtar and take rapid bus back home alone?

What if I accompany her? wait for 6pm bus and take rapid bus back home together. But will be lateeeee to home ='(

I believe that it is a tough semester. Yet, I must gambateh! I don't allow my CGPA drop again, anymore, no more!

I ever thought that I wanna get my CGPA higher and higher, like a chinese proverb says, ''步步高升''. I took it too easy since I had improved in semester 2. I too relax. That's my fault.

No more this confidence! Seriously!

I hope to get higher CGPA in this coming challenging semester! Good luck! =)

Post on 8th May
1408

Busy days

My result drops...sob sob...
Although not much, still sad...
Still, gonna thanks Milk God this weekend, at least my CGPA still 3.8 above..

After got to know my result of Semester 3 on 29th April, I brought my sadness mood to work on the next day at Prangin Mall Cathay Cineplex.

Fist day, not bad.
But I didn't know that I need to sale Sim pack >.<
It went worse on the next day, and the last day.
I learnt a word, rookie.
I'm rookie.
A rookie can do nothing.
Especially I look so fierce and unfriendly.
Omg!

So far so good la...everything still fine in these few days. Thanks God! I finished my job!
Long time didn't stand for more than 6 hours already, my leg...~~~
=DDDD

Gambateh! I gonna do better in the next coming semester, I want to catch uppp!

Post on 3rd May
0012

My First HP

Finally I bought Sony Ericsson X8 on last Saturday.
This is the FIRST HP that I bought.
I never buy HP, do you guys believe?
=DDDD
It's true!~

I was using my mum's HP since I form 3.
I just ever used 2 lousy phone...until now, I bought x8.

I just bought AP for RM600.
I thought this price was okay, but I was wrong! ==
Everyone told me that it was expensive
cold water was pouring to me, over my body ='(

Anyway, it was past.
No more next time!

I don't even know how to use this phone.
You guys feel funny or not? Lol.
I'm super damn stupid.
I'm super damn outdated.
I never used such phone.
NEVER, EVER.
such phone means...?
A touch screen phone? A 3G phone? A wifi phone?
Lol.
I just like a girl who came from the futhest village!
I'm so mad with my stupidness!

Post on 20th April
1210

wishes ;))

很久没上来了

开始懒惰了

大考又要到了

开始害怕了

担心成绩了

唉~

Investment lecturer told us about 'improvement',
Let's say, TARC and KDU
TARC has 1000 students currently and KDU has 500 students currently.
Next year, TARC has improved to 1200 students and KDU has improved to 1000 students.
This means that TARC has just improved 20% while KDU has improved 100% !

是不是我上个学期进步太多了？令我想在这学期再跟进一步的话很难？早知道 就慢慢进步，不要冲得太快！哈哈哈哈哈~
这是我的歪理！不必理会！呵呵呵~

Back to the topic,
I can tolerate my result drop, but don't too much la~haha

God, I make a wish, next week will be started final exam, hope that I able to maintain my result, the worst, at least with CGPA 3.6 or else I will not be able to catch up anymore. Thank you!

Post on 3rd April
1215

Lost Phone

Readers, so sorry!
Please skip this post as I am not going to use short form for those rude words.

Damn fucking today!!! I never expected this thing would happen on me! I lost my mobile phone! Damn it. I never ever so BAD luck! I experienced it today!

I just reloaded today, inside the mobile phone got so much credit!!! RM50++!!! What the fuck!!!

I dislike to put mobile phone in bad as I know that it's quite dangerous. BUT just today! I 'saja' wanted to put in the bag instead of put in my pocket.

I think it was not lost in 1st Avenue (p/s: I guess...). If I dropped it, I would realise as my mobile phone is quite big and heavy, definitely hear some sound if really dropped it. After that, I went to wait bus at bus station in front Prangin Mall.

When 203 come, many people come forward. It was crowded! I guess my mobile phone is lost at that moment. Kanasai!!!

I'm out of control!!! My fire can't extinguish!!!

Where the hell to get a mobile phone? My dad is unemployed again! Now, I lost phone. Why so many thing happen to me?!?!

I am planning to get a new one before I go to KL for advanced diploma. Now??? Should I buy now? Or buy before go to KL?

2012, If you're real, please come faster! I don't want to wait anymore!!
I'm fucking hopeless!!!

Post on 9th March
1858

SOJU

First time been to Soju..
Hmm..I think should be correct it..

First time been to club!

I should admin that
I'm outdated
>.<

Prince Subaidah Aikra Andy Wah,
shaking, shaking, shaking
He keep on shaking his body! XD

Elisa too^^

Vanessa and Sky Love started to shake after few cups of Scotch Whiskey.
HAHA.

That night, I felt abit dizzy...
really lousy me! >.<''

Didn't know whether I drink alcohol with empty stomach
or
I'm too lousy,
my stomach not feeling well...

I think
I won't be addicted to clubbing.
LOL
So far still okay for me.
Nothing special.=]

Post on 7th March
2130