Suck TM net

I want to go to the project 'Service without border'. It is so meaningful project. I really want to go. But internet got problem. I couldn't surf internet from Saturday until today before I called to TM.

I missed the precious chance. T.T

Maybe this is the fate, the destiny. Lol.

Post on 31st Oct
1705

Pretending

I become more and more emo lately. Think this and that, worry this and that, all nonsense, bullshit! Ishh!

Why I choose to trust you? I should not trust you. Why I choose to believe you? I should not believe you seriously. Why I choose to care about you? I should not care about you badly.

I want to believe you, however there is no way. The higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment, right?

Forgive my selfishness, I do not want to get hurt. I used to disguise myself under the shadow of fortitude. Actually I am not that strong. What did I do was just pretending. I was pretending that I am happy. I like to pretend. I choose to evade. LOL. What a lame excuse!

I am always trying to seek for security. Who can be trusted in this world?

Bla bla bla... ...
Readers, just ignore this post.
Sorry for wasting your time...
I am crazying >.<

Post on 1st Oct
1720

Result of first semester

Finally...
result is released!
Fuyohh~
get not bad result for this examination
XD

Extremely surprise~
manage to get 4A1B
with CGPA 3.7++

Gonna thank Milk God this weekend~
Hahaha

I believe that first semester is the easiest
so i able to get good result.

By the way,
3.7+ ok only la,
not very good yet
>.<
My previous class rep got CGPA 3.95!!
That's my dream and unattainable result!!

Post on 29th Sept
1825

第二学期前夕

明天就是第二个学期的开始，也是我最重要的生死期。

拿到了第二学期的时间表，感觉还可以。先按照着原本的时间表上课一个星期吧，若是想换的话再跟朋友商量。起码最早是9时上课，最迟是下午4.30 下课。听到哥哥说他早上8时有课，幸好槟城还没有开始，只在吉隆坡开始，否则我得更早醒来。如今我早三个小时醒来已经很可怜了，要是8时上课的政策在槟城分院实行，我就是超级超级可怜了。

开学后的第二天，也就是28号，我很担心。按照原理，我该去吉隆坡出席一个很重要的典礼，可是我没办法去。我想我应该会给他们一个很坏很坏的印象吧~
邀请函上说明我的出席是必定的，然而现在我没有去，真糟糕！实在害怕！

开学后的第三天，29号，是成绩出炉的日子！担心自己的成绩考得不理想。

总之，上课是我将会烦很多很多东西的时刻。常常问自己，别人能够开开心心，自由自在地去上课，为什么我却是烦恼重重呢？

笔于2010年9月26号
1155

准备迎战吧~

放假了两个星期，还剩一个星期的假期。想必，也该收拾心情，准备上课的压力了吧~在面子书上看到了关于第二学期的学费的事，公布成绩的日期，等等。

又是该烦恼的时候了。上次拿到的那张支票已汇入银行，并且提出来还给了妈妈。爸爸说过第一学期的学费是妈妈借给我的，不是给我的。现在我该拿什么钱去交第二学期的学费呢?唉~

还以为在下个星期就能够知道成绩，原来还要等到开学后才能知道。真是叫人担心呢！说实在的，关于这次的考试，我真的没啥信心的。但是，我却得骗自己可以考获至少2.75，否则我就丢了奖学金。现在的我才知道原来哥哥是真的比我聪明很多很多！哥哥竟然可以维持住奖学金至毕业，而且不是2.75而已，而是至少3.85！对我而言，2.75已经是很困难的一件事了，更何况是3.85？而哥哥却做到了。他不单每次考试都考获3.9以上的成绩，而且还在毕业前考到第十五名。

这次的假期，哥哥从吉隆坡回来了。在这短短的两个星期内，我每天都在想如何放松自己，如何使我的假期过的更充实。但，哥哥呢？我已亲眼看过哥哥数次地温习他那本ACCA的书。也许这就是我与他的分别吧~

看来，我得加把劲，更更更努力才行！
琳，准备迎接挑战吧~加油！

笔于2010年9月18日
1830

健康亮红灯

一向来，健康没什么大碍的我一直很好的。最多只是发发烧，感感冒，喉咙痛一痛，头也痛一痛，晕一晕，常年问题也只是咳嗽和嘴巴破。这些都是小病，没什么值得担忧的。

今年，我的健康好像亮红灯了。如果只是小病一场那没关系，至少我可以接受。但事实并非如此。这盏红灯一直停留在我的眼睛上。我的双眼，我最爱的双眼！一直以双眼引以为傲的我，这次无法再以双眼来引以为傲了。全身上下最满意的部位就是眼睛，为什么老天爷这么残忍要来毁掉它？为何？

五个月前，我的右眼长针眼。事后，一直被别人取笑。长针眼有错吗？长针眼一定是偷窥吗？虽然表面上我一副无所谓的模样，其实我也是介意的。为什么长针眼就一定要被人取笑？不服！挣扎了好久，终于等到针眼熟了，也破了，可是却留下了红红地伤疤。这时候的我开始觉得我的右眼毁了，不再像以前那样了。所以我也不戴隐形眼镜了，可恶的是戴眼镜又被人嘲笑老气。

原本以为没事了，留疤就留疤吧，终算雨过天晴了。好景不长在，一个月前，轮到我的左眼的时候了。由于人热，所以左眼又开始红肿了。乍看一下，黑眼珠旁长了一点小白点。去了诊所，医生说细菌在我眼珠旁滋长，如果这个细菌一直干扰的话，就要动手术了。现在先给我药来吃，看能否痊愈。按照医生的指示，吃药和滴眼药水。不久后果然痊愈了。实在感恩！

前天，我发现到类似的细菌好像又出现在我眼内了！真糟糕！这次不是长在眼珠旁，而是内眼皮，眨眼睛时有痛楚感。刚开始还没那么明显时，我还以为是针眼，因为人超热的。慢慢地发觉到不单只是痛，还好像越肿越大。白白的，真的很像上次那个细菌！怎么办？它又来干扰我了！我是不是真的需要动手术？

目前，我惟有再滴上次的那瓶眼药水，希望能够痊愈！

我没告诉任何人，除了我妹妹。我知道我其实是在担心。我真的在怕。要是真的需要动手术，我的睫毛真的彻彻底底的毁了！我不想种睫毛！

笔于2010年9月11日
1955

First project in GTM

Wee...Finally got some contribution to GTM! Some time I think that I am a sleeping member over there since I am not active enough to participate in every projects and events. I worry that my big name will be stated at absent with aplogise over the 12 monthly secretary reports. It's so paiseh and not a good feeling for sure.

This was a first project I organised throughout my Leo life! I didn't bluff anyone, it's true. I never organised any project or activity since I joined Leo Club. This project include my effort, my tears and my time. Whatever, just ignore it. I just hope it could proceeds very smoothly.

Finally, thanks for those who donate $ ya, especially my friends, May San and Aaron. They were the only two friends would like to donate T.T

Post on 6th Sept
1518

我辛苦的学院生活

好累~每天早出晚归，作息太正常了，生活反而有点无趣。现在的生活是我在未踏入学院生活之前从未想过的生活。有时想起来真的很无奈。

照理来说，学院生活应该会是很有趣的。可是我的学院生活却跟别人很不一样。每天早上要早上课时间前三个小时醒来，前两个小时出门去等巴士，拉曼的巴士在前一个小时才来。到了学院就再也出不来了，那里的食物很不好吃，但是又没办法出外吃。所以上了学院，我变得非常龟毛！由于每天搭巴士来回需花RM5.60(公共巴士RM4 +拉曼的巴士RM1.60)，所以要一天不化超过RM5是不可能的事。有史以来上课从未花超过RM5的我，实在倍感心疼以及不甘。所以想了一个妙招。把我的上课时间重新的排过一遍，把它变成一个星期只上课四天。

Monday 9am-11am Introduction to Accounting(L), 11am-1pm Microeconomics(L), 1.30pm-3.30pm Quantitative Studies(T)
Tuesday 9am-10.30am Introduction to Accounting(T), 10.30pm-12noon English , 1.30pm-3pm Microeconomics(T), 3pm-5pm QS(L)
Wednesday 9am-10am Hubungan Etnik(L), 11am-1pm Table Tennis(Co-cu), 4.30pm-6pm HE(T)
Thursday 9am-10.30am English

这样一来，我可以省不少。
星期一带面包去吃，在Accounting和Microeconomics交换时快快吃，然后忍到放学了。
星期二英文班后去食堂吃饭，RM2.60或RM2.80的饭，因为要顶到傍晚五点呢！
星期三最浪费时间，中间有四个小时空着呢！没办法，要顶到六点，所以又要吃饭。
星期四最好，根本不需要吃，等回家才吃。

至于巴士费呢，每天RM4，很心痛！所以早上去的时候给RM2，回时候我只给RM1.40。每天都过着提心吊担，害怕司机会发现我。唉~简直就不是一般人的生活！

老实说，上了学院我真的消瘦了点。不过没关系，在家里时我不会放过我喜欢的菜肴，尽量在家里把肚子喂饱。我也知道这样做对胃不好，可是要我看着钱从我手中渐渐的不见真的很心疼！我真的不习惯花钱。

话虽如此，我却把省下来的钱拿去娱乐消遣，比如说买衣服，鞋子，唱K，等等。我有一个习惯，那就是花出去的钱又要省回来！

大家多都说我很龟毛，不是节省而是吝啬。无所谓，我只是衡量得比别人精准。至少我又我的话前原则。 =)

无形间，这样就锻炼出我的毅力，试问有谁会有这种魔鬼般的毅力？

笔于2010年8月30日
1710

Final Exam

Aaiiiyyaaa
Final Exam is approaching!!!

First day, Hubungan Etnik.
Oh my god!
Have to memorise so much...TT

I just studied Microecons, seriously.
I did not memories also, just simply study and try to understand it.
How to write essay if I don't memories some keywords?
sigh~

Quantitative Studies,
Don't know how to do Tutorial 8!

During exam week,
won't be going out anymore!
Just stay at home,
study, study and study!

Apologise to GTM!

Feel so stress!!!

Post on 19th Sept
2354

Finally get my cheque

I have been waiting for such a long time.
Finally get the cheque.

Just one thousand ++.
Is it the fund for semester 1?
Or semester 2?

I asked the admin person who gave ne the cheque,
he said:' Don't know. Not clear. Ask Miss Ng n see.'
Seemed nobody him about this question. Hmm.

Well, I asked Miss Ng myself.
(Actually I was got force to ask her, just not so like her.)
Aiya!
Why her office always turn off the light?

Somebody told me that whenever she swtich off the light in her office, means that she is reating. Oh my god. Am I so bad luck? Something is up and forcing me to see her everytime she is resting..sigh~

Anyhow I must see her.
Few questions appeared in my mind.
1. Is the cheque for semester 1 or semester 2?
2. If it is for semester 1, why so little money only? / If it is for semester 2, where is the fund for semester 1?
3. When can get the next fund?

Post on 12rd Aug
1500