真爱

大家相信真爱吗？
何谓真爱？
让你惊喜连连或是感动万分吗？
还是简单地一句慰问和关心？
大家有不同的想法，不同的真爱解释。

我相信真爱。
对我而言，真爱是大家就算不说话也能明白对方，大家互相体谅以及包容。
就像家人一样，很窝心，很幸福。

然而，我也相信真爱与否是在于两个人的决心是否一致。
单靠一方的决心是不够的，也是没用的。

与其找个兴趣以及话题相同的人，何不找个互补不足以及能够制造话题的人。
兴趣再相似，也有烦闷的时刻；话题再相同，也会有说完的话题。
倘若不能彼此互补以及制造新话题，到最后也是会步上郁闷，吵架再来分开的命运。

所以，我相信不一定要彼此什么都一样，世上没有完美的人，也不会有两个人完全相似。有时，不一样还说不定会带来不一样的惊喜呢~

所谓‘世上最大的安慰莫过于有个人了解及聆听你’，还有什么比这个还重要吗？
没有人会无端端地来了解你和聆听你，若你身边有这么一个人出现，请珍惜！

有时，一个人，静静地回想，身边是否已经出现了这样的一个人。
那请你珍惜，他/她也需要有人来了解和聆听。
不要错过身边这么棒的人！

这就是平凡简单的幸福 :)

琳

笔于2013年2月5日

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Something serious happened in KL

My long-time blog. Oh, I almost forget about this blog.

Well, I've been quite a long time not around here. Let me update myself first ya.

I am currently pursuing my Advanced Diploma in Finance & Investment in TARC, KL.

Maybe I not suitable stay in KL or KL is a bad place for me. And my life in KL is so so so horrible :(

Quarrel with housemates. Ish, my friend and I just moved here no even one month! 

We were not just simply arguing, but very fierce that ones. First time ever in my life ><

Many problems caused the dispute, such as the Unifi, Diamond water, his attitude, etc.

The 2 main problems are Unifi and Diamond water.

1st, the Unifi sucks like hell. I never heard of Unifi need to load when watching movie. And the Unifi in my house needs. Sometime can't connect, no internet access, lag, ... Problem a lot. We did complained to the houseleader. This is because the modam is put in the her room! We can't online in our room but need to move to living room. It is not convenient for us to move to living room everyday. And our phone can't connect WIFI in our room as well but need to go out of the room to on it. She never want to ask people to do it for us. As the owner of this house does not like the cable on the floor, so we have to ask the specialists to do it.

2nd, the Diamond water. The Diamond water was already leaking before we moved in here. And about 2 weeks later, it terus spoil, totally can't use already. So, we have no water to drink. I need water so much!! Luckily I have two friends stay on the 23rd floor. We go to friend's house to take water everyday =.=' But this is not the best way

Seriously this house's rental is not cheap, it is slightly above the market price, but because of the facilities so we choose this house. At the end...? This facility got problem, that facility got problem. Swt.

Sigh. I do not know how long will I stay in this house, repair the Diamond still need to divide the cost...means we are indirectly help others to repair and bear the cost! Anyway, I'm really tired of it. See how then...:'(


Maybe I've made the wrong decision :(

Post on 14th October 2012

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2012

First of all, Happy 2012 to readers! 

It's a new year, a new chapter, a new beginning, a new life.

I believe everyone has a great new year eve celebration right? Hehe! But I was so pity..Hmmm, not to say pity, it was my choice what. Final falls on 29th Dec 2011, and until 11st Jan 2012. How do I have the mood to go out? Haha! 

First day of 2012, it gonna be my study day again. It's 'Foreign Exchange'! The worst subject that I ever seen! (so far, until now la~maybe there will be even worst subjects are waiting for me =P) 

4 days time to do revision. I shall not let these 4 days to fly away and I study nothing like year 1 sem 3 'Principle of Investment', it killed me!

Hmm...my last wish in 2011 was 4A1A- in year 2 sem 2. Haha! A little bit ridiculous and unattainable. Maybe the wish should be 4A1B+ instead of 4A1A- XP

So, I shall study hard hard hard in order to come true my wish! 

As a student, this is my responsible. And get good result is always what I wish and want. Other than that, I step into 20 already!!! Oh NO~I have nothing yet! No outstanding studies, no potential job, no money, no colourful life, no good friendship, and lastly, I am still single! ><

How many decades would you have? I've gone through 2 decades and still have nothing. OMG! What had I do in the past 2 decades uhh? Fail~! Lol.

Ok, saja. I just spamming around. Haha! It's time back to do my revision or else A- will never belong to me! Hehe! See ya~

Happy 2012!

Post on 1st Jan

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I am emo

I am a weird person. I am an emo person. 

I don't know how to describe myself. 

Sometime I even hate myself. My life is colourless, meaningless and hopeless.

I saw my friends and strangers surrounding me are so happy with their life. I believe everyone has his/her own problems and difficulties. But they can live happily. And I? NO!

My friend asked me that why are all my posts so sad, why not I write something fun and share my happiness. What could I answer? I don't happy! How to write something happy?

My life is colourless. Attend classes, back home, ... It's a routine, a fixed routine of my life. It will never goes against the 'plan'.

Seriously I cannot blame about my life because I choose to! I am so closeness to specific things. 'Careful calculation and strict budgeting' can only describe myself. Maybe I not come from a rich family and I understand how the money come from. I work part time to earn extra money as my parent are having low salary. That's why, I understand it is very hard to earn money if I don't have a good job. In order to have a good job, I understand I should have a good qualification. In order to have a good qualification, I understand I should have good result. ... It is a long and related relationship here. Why I always think so far away? From work to study...~.~' It makes me suffer! 

Ok, back to the topic. How to happy? I don't know. What I know and I can do now is follow my routine. Just follow it. It will show the way I should go at the end. What a hopeless life!

In short, I should concentrate on the coming final examination. I hope to get higher result! I know it has a very very low probability because GPA 3.9 is my limit, I cannot achieve higher. Hence, I won't be greedy. I just hope to maintain my CGPA at distinction.

Before I'm off, I wish to redeem my 19th birthday wish since I didn't make any wish during the short celebration. I hope it is work! because these wishes are so important to me.

1. I wish my result can maintain at my desired level.

2. I wish I can get his news.

Post on 21st Dec

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Finally~

I have been waiting for so long time to get full mark. Haha. And finally now, I got full mark! <3

I always lack of some exam luck and hence I always can't get full mark. Although it was considered quite good, just less 1 mark, 2 marks or 3 marks, there was always happens that I made some silly mistake and I've been waiting for the satisfaction for so so so long time.

People always say those score full for law subject is a crazy person, good in memorising, a nerd. But what can I argue here is that I did memorise it but I 'pick' to memorise! My answer is not bulat-bulat from the notes!!

Full mark for 'Investment Industry Law' does not mean that I am good in memorising. Instead, I hate to memorise. If I said I never memorise, it was fake! I am telling lie. Lol. I don't believe one can score full or high mark without memorise a single word.

'Understand it before remember it', this is my way of study. I found that after I understand a thing, that is much more easier to remember it. Thus, I always study at least twice before going to exam. First round is for basic understanding. Second round is to remember it. If I still not able to remember it, then only I will memorise it. Although I choose to memorise, it is easier to memorise after I understand it. This 'memorise' is very different from 'blindly memorise'.

I am waiting for some higher achievement in my academic =)

The best achievement I ever got now was full mark in my Macroeconomic coursework. That was really really amazing! Hahaha. After that, I didn't get any achievement already, until now T.T

It is getting harder and harder for me to achieve higher achievement. sigh~

I just hope and pray for my CGPA can maintain 3.85 or above. This is my final target! Gambateh! ^^

Post on 13rd Nov

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心理不平衡

一段时间没上来了，我又回来啦～

我很少在这里分享开心的事，因为不善于沟通的我，常常上来这里通过文字抒发藏在内心不为人知的情绪 ^^

其实有好几次都想来写写自己的心情，可是往往碍于时间关系而把一些不开心的事往里面吞。

就好像昨天，妈妈竟然叫我自己坐巴士从KL回都不愿为要考试的我提早回！我太失望了！

她竟然说出这种话！我会记住的！

要是让我昨天上来，一定会写很多很多很难听的话，哈哈！

幸好，我的气来的快，去的快。

现在，没事啦～

还有今天，考了Leo Test，运气欠佳的我再次考到49/50的成绩 =(

很不幸的是，这次总共有4个人考获同样的分数。

还能怎样呢？就临时出5道问题咯～

我竟然5道都不会！因为这5道题都不是在考试范围内，而是临时出的。

当时心理很不平衡，真的有点想讲脏话！（不是有点，而是已经讲了 =P）

是我忽略少师，所以5道问题都不会回答。

自己活该！

算了，反正不重要！

我已做好自己的本分，也凭自己的努力和付出考到49/50的成绩。

早上才读，并且没有作弊，也算对得起良心了！ =)

对不起，我真的不喜欢作弊，因为我不想听别人的闲言闲语。

 或许我就是自私。

所以，对不起，如果我没帮到你。

最后，想对看这篇文章的人说，我没有要说什么，只是很单纯地抒发自己的不平衡。

请勿扭曲我的意思！谢谢！

笔于2011年11月5日

2235

 

more serious

It's day 6 today.

Why am I still not yet recover?

Why am I getting more and more bubbles instead of getting lesser n lesser?

Damn!!! When can I recover???!!

The bubbles on my face and thigh are getting more and more bigger and pain!! 

I just realized the bubble on my face has some sort of fluid, yellowish fluid. OMG!

Please, be kind to me~ T_T

Besides, my eye problem came again! 

It's pain!! I can see a so-called bacteria is sucking my blood!!!

Besides this bacteria, my eye is swelled too.

Gosh! When can I get normal???

Post on 28th Sept

1010

一波未平，一波又起

昨天，真的有如标题说的那么糟糕，‘一波未平，一波又起’。

虽然知道一个人一生中会出水痘一次，但是万万没想到会真的发生在我身上。

之前，当身边的朋友出水痘时，我都会很乐观地说听天由命，要来就来，反正总要出一次嘛～

现在，终于出了。我却乐观不起来。

为什么在这个时候出？我要去上课，我要出席活动。

我不是位书虫，也不爱读书，我只是为成绩打拼，并不是我怕输，而是我为将来打算。

我真的不想拿病假，也不想缺席任何一堂课。我怕我会追不上。我不要成绩退步。

今天，PMO举办了我有兴趣的活动，晚上的Leo Cabinet Installation也颇有兴趣。我甚至还已经打算交通和衣着了。最终，什么都没了。呆在家里。

第一波，当然是出水痘。接下来的第二波，实在是心痛极了。

晚上睡前，发现手机出现一通未接电话，是个不知名的+8813131349。

我就奇怪。而且我竟然没听到电话有响过呀！

我害怕是他！

就在好奇心和害怕的驱使之下，不管了，我拨打了这通电话。

第一通，不通。

第二通，通了，类似客户服务的人说一大堆话。

才听了几秒就觉得不对劲，莫名其妙，就赶快挂了。

即，通话报告显示花了RM12.50！！！

王八蛋！！！无端端亏了RM12.50！！

笔于2011年9月24日

2255

Am I greedy?

People say my result is good. People say my performance is good. People are envying me. People are asking me not to humble. People are blaming me hypocritical.

Well, first of all, I would like to thank to those who praising me.

But why I still unhappy with that? I'm disappointed with that.

I shouldn't get this result/marks, I'd wasted the mark which is belong to me. ='(

Am I greedy?

I don't think so. I just want to improve myself and get better!

I still satisfy with that though I'm not so happy with that. I would say, this is my standard and level. I'd tried. Why I would miss the marks, I don't know...it is just, out of my expectation but in the range of my target, seem contradictory uhh..haha @@

___Saja spamming___

Post on 5th July
2140

Lost my way

Now, year 2 semester 1, I am so depravation! I cannot tolerate myself with this damn stupid fu*king situation!!! I am losing my way T_T

How am I suppose to describe my feeling now? This feeling is swallowing me and engulfing me day by day!!! Arghhhhh!~~~~~

How to express myself?!?! I HATE myself so much!

Why I cannot concentrate during the lectures and tutorials even though I'd told myself to do that?!

Why I don't know what are lecturers and tutors talking about?!

Why is my brain cannot work out on it?!

I am so scared! How am I going to take the tests and exam as well? How am I going to achieve my target?

I feel so frustrated that everyday attend lectures and tutorials without gaining any knowledge! How to describe uh? some sort like attend blindly, totally get no any point from the class, ...

Why I become like this? Ish!! Damn!! Fu*k!! @#$%&

No word can describe my feeling now.

Why is this semester so terrible?! Total 6 subjects are going to study, the MAIN problem is that at least 3 subjects are horrible subjects! How to study?!?!

1. English for Business-so far so good as compared to other subjects
   
2. Financial Accounting-so far so good as compared to other subjects
   
3. Ethics for Business-A LOT of things to memories, too LIFELESS subject
   
4. Money and Capital Markets-frighten by Investment last sem
   
5. Economic Statistic-hate the Indian slang so much
   
6. Basic Taxation-the lecture is so 'beh'
   

See~4 out of 6 subjects are waiting to 'die', how to control myself to LOVE them?

Please~~~~DO NOT continue like this! Wake up please! I got no any chance and excuse to fall! People are watching me to fall, I CANNOT make their wishes come true!!!

I decide to study, to do my revision EVERYDAY! No more relax and rest in my dictionary! I don't need anymore, the only thing I need the most is COFFEE!

Post on 13rd June
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