Monday, June 13, 2011

Lost my way

Now, year 2 semester 1, I am so depravation! I cannot tolerate myself with this damn stupid fu*king situation!!! I am losing my way T_T

How am I suppose to describe my feeling now? This feeling is swallowing me and engulfing me day by day!!! Arghhhhh!~~~~~

How to express myself?!?! I HATE myself so much!

Why I cannot concentrate during the lectures and tutorials even though I'd told myself to do that?!

Why I don't know what are lecturers and tutors talking about?!

Why is my brain cannot work out on it?!

I am so scared! How am I going to take the tests and exam as well? How am I going to achieve my target?

I feel so frustrated that everyday attend lectures and tutorials without gaining any knowledge! How to describe uh? some sort like attend blindly, totally get no any point from the class, ...

Why I become like this? Ish!! Damn!! Fu*k!! @#$%&

No word can describe my feeling now.

Why is this semester so terrible?! Total 6 subjects are going to study, the MAIN problem is that at least 3 subjects are horrible subjects! How to study?!?!
  1. English for Business-so far so good as compared to other subjects
  2. Financial Accounting-so far so good as compared to other subjects
  3. Ethics for Business-A LOT of things to memories, too LIFELESS subject
  4. Money and Capital Markets-frighten by Investment last sem
  5. Economic Statistic-hate the Indian slang so much
  6. Basic Taxation-the lecture is so 'beh'
See~4 out of 6 subjects are waiting to 'die', how to control myself to LOVE them?

Please~~~~DO NOT continue like this! Wake up please! I got no any chance and excuse to fall! People are watching me to fall, I CANNOT make their wishes come true!!!

I decide to study, to do my revision EVERYDAY! No more relax and rest in my dictionary! I don't need anymore, the only thing I need the most is COFFEE!



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