Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Massage Shop

Actually I quite busy today.
First, followed Carmen to work.
She is working as a cashier at a massage shop.
She found me to replace her when she off day.
One week just one day.
I think I could be work so I told her that I most probably could help her.
Thus, she tough me how to work today.
But actually I didn't tell my dad anything about this job yet.

Anyway, I suppose back at 4pm.
As I have to rush back home to have a interview.
Work as a clerk at SIM Tuition Center.
Just at night.
This job is also inform by the clerk,
she asked me before whether can replace her at the night or not,
just for 2 hours,
because she wanna back earlier...to tend her child i think =p
I had promised her before also as I feel the job is quite okay for me.

Okay stop, back to the previous topic first.
Due to the kacao kacao from the boss and those workers there,
I have to back later.
Darn it.
Luckily, at last I back at 4.05pm.
To be honest,
I didn't know where is the location of this massage shop.
I just followed Carmen, her friend fetch us today.
Really missing on the way!
I remembered Carmen had told me that just walk to 7-eleven,
there has a bus station in front of the 7-eleven.
I walked along the road and then turned right.
On the way, I saw Oriental Hotel.
Oh, that's Oriental.
Later I'll be there to attend my friend's birthday party.
Didn't bother so much, keep on my way to 7-eleven.
My god, don't have bus station ya!
Where is the bus station???
No idea.
Back to massage shop again to ask Carmen as I am really a 路痴!
Walked again from massage shop to search for the bus station.
Got two 7-eleven there la ==
Carmen didn't tell me,
just said I must see a 7-eleven after turned right.

Get on the bus,
received a message from the clerk.
Interview had changed to tomorrow and asked me what time I can make it.
I thought I have to rush back home,
now no need to do so anymore.
Shit man!
Tomorrow I have to follow Carmen and learn again.
I just could make it at night. =(

Reached home.
Rest a while.
Steven is going to pick me up at 7.30pm.
Soon, my dad was back from work.
I would like to ask him to fetch me back from massage shop tomorrow.
Thus, I just described the location.
p/s: We were at living room right now!
Once I said it's somewhere near Oriental,
he straight away stopped me to talk forward.
And started blame..blame...blame...
Help!
Everyone know I gonna work at massage shop >.< style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">
I just hate one niam me!
He totally didn't know what am i talking to my dad,
just see my dad suddenly stopped me with loud voice,
then keep asking what happened.
Please la, I just answered for him to blame me?
Am I stupid?! Suck*
My grandma even worse!
She blamed me that
I want to work at this kind of place and this kind of money right now?
And I am still a student already wanna work easier job?
Even worse,
she asked me no need to continue study anymore if wanna work at there!
This kind of job no need to employ an educated person!
Fu*k*

Everyone is blaming me.
Said that massage shop isn't a good working place, won't just be a cashier at there so easy, that area is a bad area for a student and don't allow me to work at there.
Oh my God,
what are they thinking of me right now?
what's my impression inside their heart and mind?
Shit man!
Darn it.
That shop is really a massage shop,
not a illegal shop and do any illegal business such as chicken business.
Whatever I say, they just don't believe.
Blamed me some more how much I know from the shop.
They must be kind to me at the beginning.
OK, fine!
I told Carmen that I couldn't work.
I broke the promises. Zzz.
She was pek cek-ing with my answer, I know.
But what to do, she must accepted that.
Sorry, Carmen!

Because of this fu*king stuff,
I couldn't attend my friend's birthday party.
I broke the promises again!
Suck*
Luckily I didn't tell my dad that
the birthday party is hold at Oriental. ==
Anyhow,
Happy Birthday to Steven!
and
Sorry!

Now,
I just hope that
my grandma's mouth can shut up!
She is always like to share some news with neighbours!
I damn hate this kind of action!




Post on 1st April
0218

Thursday, March 25, 2010

知己

之前,
我真的很辛苦。
整个人都无精打彩的,
消瘦了些。
为了那些一大堆的烦恼,
没胃口,吃不安,睡不着。

前几天,
就在我彷徨以及茫然时,
我向我的一位好朋友倾诉,
收到她这样的一封信息。

我打算公开她的信息在这与关心我的朋友们分享。
我想她应该不会介意吧~

以下是她的信息内容:
其实嘛,这段时间,看见你压力挺大,说真的,我不知道该怎么帮忙。。。也不能明确了解你的辛苦。我有试试想过你的处境,必读学院却又突然借不到助学金,要想尽办法借结果很多麻烦,接二连三的障碍,加上没有什么人帮得上忙,无助和无奈,换作是我也可能会发飙。其实我想你这段时间一个人吞了些眼泪吧?这种情况,我们总是必须经历过的。当我们越大,烦恼就越多,一边学习一边挣扎,成长是要经过痛苦的。但是,往往艰难的环境才能塑造出高素质的坚毅力。很多时候,遇到很不乐观的事情,切记先要冷静,然后,往好的方面想。就像你目前的情况,虽然逼你忙碌地做很多东西,可是从中你得了经验,你更理解如何处理这些事,更独立,同时学习如何与人相处,虽然他们不对,所以藉此你又学习忍让和原谅。其实我们遇到的每个局面,好或坏,都是一个成长的机会。与其选择消极,何不选择乐观?积极,就是力量!我本身时常也很挣扎苦恼,很多事,一定要亲自经过,很多泪,一定要亲自流过。这并不代表我们是孤独的,而是每个人都必须经过的个人成长过程。宜琳,认识你酱久,似乎没什么见你真正开心过。人生许多阶段等着你去面对,我认识的你,不是位轻言放弃的人。累时,稍微歇息,难受时,别阻止眼泪。这些之后,再给自己个微笑,因为你经过苦难,信心和毅力又升级了!宜琳,有什么我帮得到的,我一定帮。你要加油哦!=)
备注:我没删改任何一个字噢。

这封信息实在把我给感动!
当时我真的很无助,
突然间收到她这样的一封信息,
虽然信息长度媲美一段文章,

这是真心诚意以及感动的,
把我隐藏已久的泪水再也忍不住地划过脸颊。
其实当我看到
‘其实我想你这段时间一个人吞了些眼泪吧?’
这句时,
眼眶里的眼泪就掉了下来。
因为,这是真的。

从来没有一个人跟我说过这样的话。

是第一位。
第一位把我的心声给形容得这么贴切,
第一位告诉我从来没见我真正开心过。
我还以为大家都会觉得我很开心,很乐观。
回想起来,
我好像真的不曾真正开心过。

我想
认识她
是我前辈子修来的福气。
我会珍惜这位知己的!

嘉欣,
谢谢你!





笔于2010年3月25日
1117

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

成功!

终于
今天交上了报名表格。
成功!

开心~
但麻烦到了我的朋友,
要他载我们到大老远。
实在不好意思~
因为还要去载我的朋友呢!

最后,
成功交上了!

不懂是不是我带衰他,
他车的钥匙竟然卡着不能转!
方向盘也转不了!
把我们给吓惨了!

幸好,
我们还是安全以及顺利地抵达我们各自的家。

感恩~
谢谢我那位朋友!
如果没有他的帮忙,
我们就没办法成功交上我们的报名表格。
我会记得这份人情的,
决定请他吃一餐。
=)




笔于2010年3月25
0101

祝我好运

朋友们,
祝我好运吧~

今天下午我会和朋友再去一次拉曼
去交报名表格。
真的真的真的
希望
能够没有问题的!
愿我和朋友成功交上报名表格!



笔于2010年3月24日
0921

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

衰到贴地

真是有够衰的!

下午好不容易找到一位朋友能载我去一趟拉曼,
谁知
问题又来了!

就这么刚好我找不到正本的报生纸!

打电话到妈咪的工厂,
跟着妈咪的指示,
还是找不到!

看吧~
我真的衰到掉渣!




笔于2010年3月24日
0043

就这么刚好

到底是为什么最近我在走衰运?
究竟我犯到什么?
要我做什么才能不要再这样衰?

真的!
我真的很衰!
衰爆了!
从来没有这样衰过!
衰到贴地!

神啊,救救我呀!
我不想再衰下去。。。

想听听我的衰事吗?
即无聊又无趣,
再加上我懒惰写太长。。。
在这就简短缩写吧~

今年年初,
就烦做工的问题,
再来就烦成绩的问题,
现在烦着继续升学的问题。

做工的问题,
很多,
之前有交待过了,
这里不想多谈。

成绩的问题,
就是SPM咯。
考到这样的成绩,
心灰意冷~

最后升学的问题,
这是一个大问题!
考到这样的成绩要升学是个大问题!
备注: 是要达到我的目标,我要的选择啦~

就这么刚好少一科A,丢了奖学金!
就这么刚好今年没有给优惠!
就这么刚好没有人愿意和我读一样科系!
就这么刚好没人可以载我去上学!
就这么刚好我以为已把所有问题都解决时朋友突然说不能载!
就这么刚好遇到那些不知所谓的counselors!
就这么刚好妈咪复印我的身份证有出错!
就这么刚好忘了给我爸签上他的大名!
就这么刚好去了三次却没有任何人告诉我要带正本!
就这么刚好已交表格的朋友忘记告诉我要带正本!

每遇到一次衰的就这么刚好后,
我都必须想办法解决。
成功解决时,
另一个就这么刚好又出现。
到底要我怎么做啊?
告诉我就行了呀,
不需要来这样玩我吧?!
在挑战本人的耐性吗?
那我告诉你,
你赢了!

妈的,
世界上真的有这么多这样刚好的事吗?
怎么不看有
就这么刚好有朋友和我读一样科系?
就这么刚好她们能载我去学校?
就这么刚好成功交上报名表格不需要我再去第五次
我只要求这三个的就这么刚好而已。。。
为什么偏偏却丢给我那十个烂的就这么刚好
以三个换十个,
不过分吧?

是我犯到了什么吗?
为什么问题总在不断地出现?
从年初就开始了!
究竟我这段衰运,
几时才能够划上句点?



笔于2010年3月23日
1330

Sunday, March 14, 2010

问题一篓篓

到目前,
问题一大堆还不能解决!

为什么我这样衰?!?!
到底为什么?

就这么衰之少一个A?!
就这么衰今年开始没有扣给那些有哥哥姐姐在读拉曼的人?!
就这么衰没人愿意跟我一起读?!
就这么衰我老爸没钱买一辆车给我?!

还有多少问题???
还有多少问题等着我去解决???

之前我还以为我已解决了所有问题,
谁知问题现在才出现!

之前约定好一起读和她载我去的朋友
昨天放我鸽子了!

Margaret又说她妈突然要她读中六了!

明恩又迟迟不确定要读什么,
一下又说还没决定要读中六还是拉曼!

啊!
捅我一刀算了!
好过现在生不如死!





笔于2010年3月14日
1753

心烦意乱

大家都不相信我,
大家都坚持要读会计。

到底谁可以跟我一起读?


很烦!!!

如果真的没人要跟我读一样,
我就要跟朋友了。

真的要我读会计吗?
我真的读不起啦!
我哥12科A的人都说读得很辛苦了,
难道我真的要读吗?
我怎么可能读得起?

真可怜!
我就像个东西一样,
要随着他人!

我真的不想步我哥的后程啦!




笔于2010年3月14日
1722

难受

现在这种状况
比死还难受!

很烦!
很烦!
很烦!

有没有一种简单又直接的方法来解决?

不要让我再这样烦!





笔于2010年3月14日
1654

Saturday, March 13, 2010

忽视的感觉

6A's
让我又爱又恨
我曾很爱过它,
但也是它让我终日以泪洗脸。

是它,
让我无地自容;
是它,
让我没有自信;
是它,
让我抬不起头;
是它,
让我没面目见人。

就是它,
让大家拿放大镜来看我;
就是它,
让大家在看我笑话。

为什么?

我无法见人,
我抬不起头来。
就算在家里也是一样!

除了妹妹,
我谁都无法面对。

为什么不能让我考获7A's?
一科之差,
害得我好惨!
就一科之差,
害我丢了奖学金!

为什么级任老师要告诉我我考获7A's?
为什么要让我白开心一场?
难道看到我空欢喜一场会很开心吗?

为什么我不是读商科?
要是我读商科,我一定能考获7A's!
一些我比她们好些的统统都考获7A's!
为什么老爸要我读商科?

怪了全世界的人,
其实最该怪的人是自己!

妈的,
为什么我这样笨?!
为什么我这样衰?!
为什么要用放大镜来看我?!
为什么我哥这样聪明?!





笔于2010年3月13日
1650

Friday, March 12, 2010

乐极生悲

拿了成绩后就抱病出去玩。
终于,
乐极生悲!

朋友们,
不要再恭喜我了!
我不是考获7科A!
我无法获得scholarship!
拉曼不接受LCCI!

妈的,
老娘差一个A!


老爸也完全不为我的成绩感到欣慰!
*可怜
他说我的成绩普通而已。

我曾经还为我的成绩感到很高兴。
*失望

烂成绩!
烂命运!
烂人一个!



笔于2010年3月12日
1919

放榜

终于等到SPM成绩放榜的一天!
老实说,
我竟然一点紧张的感觉也没有!
心情就像江里的水,平平稳稳地,
完全没有狂风大浪,
很奇怪。
照理说这不是我该有的情绪。
原来紧张兮兮的我居然也有安稳的时刻!

签了名,等着级任老师分派成绩。
‘一个,两个,三个,四个,五个,六个。。。。。。’
*停顿
靠,别告诉我只获得六个A's叻!
幸好,还有最下角的LCCI获得1分!
1分就是A!
‘。。。。。。七个!’ 级任老师笑笑地看着我说。

耶!~
我有scholarship了!

要是我没有拿会计,
想必我只获得5科A,
一科会计让我有两个A。

LCCI,算吧?
否则我只有6科A而已耶!
可是没有scholarship的叻!
希望算吧!
不然,我恨惨自己了!




笔于2010年3月12日
1135

Monday, March 8, 2010

Fu*king Shoepoint

I already worry about that when changing our uniform.
It state that
sales assistant must work at least 5 months,
or else RM30 will be charged per uniform.
I dare not to sign my signature when I was seeing these statement.
I just gonna work till March,
RM90 will be charged on 3 of the uniforms!

Maybe lao yi realized my worried.
She told me that
is okay if I don't work at least 5 months.
Just tell them earlier if I wanna resign.

Now?
end up with... ...?

Stingy aunt deduct this RM90 from my commission!

Readers,
please!
Don't ever try to work at Shoepoint!
It's a suck shop!





Post on 8th March
2323

Sick

keep hanging out with friends lately.
My dad started to amaran me.
Next Wednesday still need to back late
because of meeting.
LOL

Anyway,
I sick now.
sore throat and cough,
feel the hotness all over my body,
but I cooled by surrounding.
This is what called in Hokkian, oi gua
right?
LOL




Post on 8th March
0017

Friday, March 5, 2010

SPM result

Result of SPM 2009 will release on next Thursday,
11st March.

Death date, death time.

sigh~

How many A's would I get?
Would I get 7A's?
keep thinking about this stupid question >.<
wth

I'll commit suicide if I just get 6A's!
==

Just been TAR College to ask some info.
Don't know how to choose my future!
Banking & Finance?
or Finance & Investment?
Which one is the better?
Which one is easier to get a standard job?
Question marks is running over my mind.

The biggest problem is
not my interest should I think first.
But I shall to think about the fee and transport!
Tanjung Bungah,
how do I go to college everyday?
My dad is now don't have enough money to get me a car.
Thus, my decision is still depend on my friends!
They are same like me.
I just received the answer,
'don't know yet' , 'still thinking' , 'not sure'
bla bla bla... ...





Post on 5th March
1803

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Resign

Yeah~
Have been stop working..
today is my last day!

Finally,
can get away from these heartless people and shop!

One month earlier has to inform...
ya, today is the first of March,
I inform boss about my resignation today,
what's wrong???
Aunt blame me somemore why do I inform today, should be inform earlier.
wtf
I know what she blame for.
She worry that there is no body wanna work!
She say that now after CNY is less people seek for a job,
hard to hire people.
Remember!
She is a two-face person.
She is just smiling while talking to me.
And say that
my salary will just remain RM750
because she thought that I will be working long term.
Lame.

No doubt,
once she hire a person,
she just quickly tell me that
I just work for today,
because shoepoint has just hire a malay girl today,
she will be replace me.
Good~
By the way,
I would like to pray for that malay girl....
oh no~
one more victim...
pity~

Anyway
I am happy to leave!
xDDD
I just miss some friends there...
umm
will go and visit them when I free ya!
Friends,
don't forget me ya~

I have been absent for several activities that done by Leo Club of GTM,
will try to attend it.
Leo Club Of Georgetown Mutiara,
I'm coming back.
But I need to say that,
I still need transport
although I had pass my driving test
T.T

Lastly,
wish my friends good luck!
And Ying will get a better job soon.
=)




Post on 2nd March
0200