Friday, November 27, 2009

miss you

I am going to miss you,
my lovely sister =)

My sister and my mum were going to KL yesterday night
to attend cousin's wedding.

Sister, you are the first time leaving me alone.
sigh~
I am so miss you
although we always like to argue and fight
XD XD

Yesterday,
after you leaving home,
our home became quiet.
This is because of you.
Our home without your voice, your sound, your smile
had become so quiet.

Today,
when I woke up,
I did not see you.
*sigh
I used to kacao you after I woke up.
But today, I could not do that.

The day will be boring,

I think.


Post on 27 Nov
1012

Thursday, November 26, 2009

早上醒来,
原来发了个梦。
噩梦?

不懂。
梦到我一个人,很闷,很孤单。

我爸载我到Prangin Mall ,
过后老爸就走了。

梦境与现实
是对称呢?还是相反?

我梦到一个人在少狮会中,
没人理睬我,
很闷。

不懂为什么会发了个这样的梦。
这个梦
是在意味着什么吗?



笔于2009年11月26日
1100

表姐结婚 21112009

那天,
是我二表姐结婚的宴会。

那天,
也是我考SPM的第一个礼拜。

在美兰阁,
还蛮闷的。

我一直跟妹妹讲话,
一直跟我妹妹玩。

没什么好讲,
就这样。



笔于2009年11月26日
1039

Monday, November 16, 2009

大马教育文凭考试

大马教育文凭考试将在2009年11月18号至2009年12月14号举行。
唉~
真悲哀!

老实说,我并没有真正下百分百的努力,
所以,我不会怨天尤人,只会怨自己。

今天,星期一了。
我没到学校上课。
因为没人载我回家,
反正出席率的奖金已到手,而且没有课室用(两班在图书馆),
索性不去学校了。

这是我第一次逃课。
从小,我爸就培养我们兄弟姐妹不可缺席。
从小学到现在,
我只缺席过两次。
备注: 若我没记错的话

第一次,
小学四年级。
原因——红眼症
那时,人人听到红眼症斗吓傻了。
原本我还是一样到学校上课,
可是我的级任老师害怕!
还叫我别来上课了!

第二次,
小学五年级。
备注: 忘了是五年级还是六年级了。
原因: 到吉隆坡去喝喜酒
亲戚结婚,我们全家人到吉隆坡去喝喜酒。

上了中学,
我还是一样保持着不缺席的态度,
哪怕是考完PMR的那段时期。

现今社会的人,应该还蛮惊讶我的态度,我想。
大家都问我原因。
不是病魔从没找上我,
而是我不想让缺席这个坏习惯跟上我。

自小,我们兄妹都受我老爸的教育,
妈妈比较少。
老爸说不可以随便缺席,
要是习惯了缺席这个坏习惯,
长大后,吃亏的将会是自己。
长大后,因为一丁点小事或小病就不去上班,
老板不是我们的谁,
分分钟被炒鱿鱼呢!

虽然说这些,
对我们而言是早了点,
但足能让我明白社会是充满竞争的,
人人都有被取代的机会。
我明白老爸想要传达的讯息。

就这样,
就算生病,我们都会上学。
当然,不会是病入膏肓也逼我们上学啦!
小病,就在家吃了药才去学校;
若需要每隔几小时就要吃药一次的话,
就把药带去学校。
药都带到学校吃了,
还有什么理由还要缺席呢?

很多朋友都不明白,
没关系,
我明白就可以了,对不对?
=)

话说回来,
SPM真的快到了!
我好害怕!
我不想让一些支持我的人失望。
我爸早已说好我只能考获5A's,
我哥竟然对我外公说只要我肯努力,有机会考获8A's,
奶奶说哥哥从她手上拿到RM500,如果我考获6A's开始,一科RM50, 10A's 以上就RM500,
朋友们个个对我有信心,
然而谁会知道我并不是他们所想的那么聪明?



笔于2009年11月16日
1322

Sunday, November 15, 2009

梦想

我想靠自己赚钱。
我想当老板。

这是我的梦想。
我梦寐以求的职业是老板。

哈!似乎想得太多了些。
老板?
这样容易当吗?
苦笑

由于没有本钱,
我想毕业后出来工作一些时间,
然后存钱,
再当老板。
备注:当然不是高中毕业,我没那么不会想。

我只希望当一个兼职的老板。
有自己的上班时间之余,
还可以拥有属于自己的店。

这是我梦寐以求的生活!

都说了是梦寐以求,
所以我固然不会痴痴地发白日梦。
这些,全都会在我梦中出现。

然而,娴让我有了一些启示。
原来,
她和我一样有着共同的梦想和理想。
她想开一间属于她的蛋糕面包店。
和我,有些相像。
我想开一间类似蛋糕店,
里头有着香醇的咖啡,美味的点心,漂亮的蛋糕。。。 。。。
看着客人悠闲地享用,简直是人间天堂啊!
备注:很明显,我正在发梦。

回到现实,
我了解这是不怎么可能的事。
现今的社会是多么的忙碌,
大家都在想尽办法的在你争我夺,
试问还有谁会这么悠闲的来享受呢?

我觉得,
这种诗情画意的梦想,
只有在西方国家才有。
或许我看太多的戏剧和小说,
才会发出这种白日梦。
哈!

但是,
从娴的坚持,
我看到了她的毅力。

那天倾谈过后,
她表示得很坚持,
不像我,毫无信心。
备注: 看不起我自己
她说,她会慢慢耕耘,一定会等到收获的那一天。
看着她那坚定的眼神,
我不禁替自己感到悲哀。

她是多么的想让梦想一天比一天靠近,
而我呢?
成天只会唉声叹气,怨天怨地。
实在惭愧!

当她知道我们有着共同的梦想之后,
还要求合伙呢!
看着她那笑得合不拢嘴的模样,
我想看到了希望。
虽然,
我还是觉得现在说这些有些操之过急。
我还告诉她梦想纯粹只是梦想,
梦想不能当饭吃呢!
但她眼神表露出坚持不懈地精神,
还一口否决了我的想法。

娴,谢谢你!
你令我重新看到了希望。




笔与2009年11月16日
0224

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

未来

完了,完了,完了!
唉~一开始就说不吉利的话,真是的!

6科A飞走了,
你说我能不说‘完了,完了,完了’吗?
唉~~~

三科科学——物理,化学和生物
三科语文科——国语,华语,英语

手指算一算,
11-6=5
只剩5科能够拿A的科目,噢买尬!

怎么办好呢?
对于这5科,我很有信心吗?
老实说,还好。
我不敢放下太大的信心,
因为我不想期望愈大,失望愈大。

其中有2科,还蛮有信心的——
数学和道德

还有2科,应该可以的——
高级数学和会计

剩下1科,也许可以吧——
历史

屈指一数,
5科A
不够啦~~~
太少了!

虽然以本人的能力,
5科A已是不错了。
老爸也判定我只能拿5科A,
要在多些,就要靠自己的努力和命运。
然则,我不曾下百分之百的努力,
所以只能靠命运。
但是,
偏偏本人不是个运气很好的人,
天意总是弄人啊!

真烦恼!
成绩不够好就飞走了scholarship,
没有了scholarship,
老妈就要我读Form 6,
气死人了!

前途,
望无止际。
我的未来是个梦!

究竟
我该选择什么科系呢?
Accountancy? Business? Hospitality?
哪个?
我不知道,
真的不懂。
最可悲的是我根本不了解我自己,
我连自己的兴趣在哪都不知道!
悲哀~

唯一肯定的是
我不会再继续读理科。
这是我唯一知道的。
然则,不读理科,
还有很多很多科系呀,
到底该选择什么呢?

我很现实。
我了解现实很重要,
虽则我们应该从理想,目标,兴趣出发,
但社会是现实的。

除了理科之外,我唯一想到的出路是
会计!
会计师在社会上还蛮有前途的。
只是。。。。。。
大家都有这个想法,
所以在现今的社会上也出现了很多会计师。

如果只当account clerk, 是不够的。
一名account clerk,根本赚不了多少。
要读accountancy,就必须当一名professional accountant。
正所谓一山还有一山高。
本人知道自己的能力所在,
我没办法当上一名professional accountant。

而且,
我哥现在正在就读Accountancy,
也表示他将会成为一名Accountant,
我还要继他后路吗?

从小到大,
我总是跟着我哥的脚步走。
他走过的路,
接着由我来走。
也因为这样,
很容易就分辨得出来我们俩的程度。

记得我四年级的当时,
我哥六年级,
从小语文课不好的我(华语除外)面对着教过我哥的老师特别紧张。
就这么刚好,
我的国语老师就是我哥的国语老师。
我的国语简直差到不及格;
我哥的国语却是能够在班排首几位名次的人。
每当国语节时,我都很害怕。
那位国语老师铁定猜想:为什么哥哥聪明而妹妹却。。。。。。。

在补习,
我也是跟着我哥。
他补什么科,我就得补什么科。
他说那个科目不需要补,
我爸就没让我补。
那些知道我哥是谁的补习老师对我特别好,
例如:走过我身边时会问我有什么问题吗或是会不会等等。
当然,有个补习老师这么关心我,我当然高兴。
但是,我知道,
要不是我哥,他们不会这么关心我。
全是因为我哥铺好的路,
因为我哥聪明,努力,成绩一向不错,
补习老师当然疼他,
知道他有妹妹,
自然会多留意些他的妹妹。

上了中学,中四,
我还是一样跟着我哥——
就读理科加上会计。
无可否认,跟着我哥是个对的选择。
而他的理由总能说服我和我老爸。
只要成绩还可以就尽量在中四及中五就读理科,
因为理科还可以转去商科,
当然,若是有办法继续就读理科是最好;
中四及中五就读商科就没办法转去理科,
所以为什么要放弃唯一就读理科的机会呢?
而且,就读理科还可以在读一科会计以防万一真的要转去商科也方便;
就读商科,有办法再读任何一科理科的科目吗?

现在,
我还要继他后路吗?
好恨自己!
我是个多么没想法的人!
老爸问我,以后要读什么,
我不知道,真的不知道。
成绩好的人就可以毫无忧虑的,
他们唯一忧虑的是太多选择了;
成绩不太好的人,就如我,
忧虑的是我读得上那个科系。
为什么我的程度差我哥这么多?
为什么我这么笨?(比起我哥)

多么想像儿童般,无忧无虑地,快乐的过生活。
多么想做个聪明人,有纵多的选择。


笔与2009年11月13日
0606

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Graduation day 30/10/2009

Happy Graduation!!!
30th of October was the graduation day of Union High School.
Nothing to talk about it. Just quite boring when was at the hall.
And no mood to capture photo with friends.
Just ,moody...
Hun and Sally was going out to search for teachers to capture photo.
Lazy to follow...>.<>
Capturing photo before going to hall
with my lovely classmates^^

Liing, Hun, Fang

Liing, Sally, Hun

Sadly, I had a tuition class on that day.
4.15pm until 6pm.
T.T
I forced to back earlier from tuition class.
When I reached home, I found that my dad was not at home.
OMG!
I was panic.
Where was he?
My grandmother said that he was picking my brother up to somewhere to ask for some information about the telephone.
Oh dear~
5.45pm now!
I called up my brother quickly.
He answered me coolly that they were on the way back.
As chinese proverb,
'人衰,做什么都衰'
Getting block from Police.
Luckily I had brought IC.
p/s: but he didn't check >.<
Darn it.
Wasting my time.

For sure, I was late.
But they were waiting for me.
About 6.15pm, we were gathered in front of One Stop.
We were having a dinner at Midland Court.
Yan, Liing, Nee, Hun, Ying.

From top:
Choo, Sally, Liing, Yin, Wen, Nee, Hun, Ying


Sally, Yan, Liing, Hun

Sally, Nee, Zheng,Yan, Liing, Hun

Yan, Liing, Hun, Sally, Ying


Friend Forever!
Liing and Fang

Liing vs Ching

Liing and Margaret

with my Form teacher, Pn. Yeoh.

Students were crying...
me?
Didn't cry la surely~
since I had mentioned earlier that I was moody on that day...
with my Chinese teacher, Pn. Chie
Sally, Liing, Ying.

our Additional Mathematics teacher, Miss Chong.
Liing and Sally.

our English teacher, Pn. Sharon
Liing, Hun, Sally.

LingLing and Liing

Yan vs Liing

Liing vs Min

Liing, Sammy, Yong

Liing, Minn, Fang

Yong, Liing, Yan, Minn, Sin,
Yeen, Ling, Fang.

Liing and Wawa

Liing and Sin

Union High School Rock!



Post on 08th Nov
0123

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Study Smart

Actually, how to study smart?
sigh~
is a big enough question mark in my mind.
???

Whereas I know how to study hard, I think.
Read, read and read. Memories, memories and memories.
Is it mean by study hard?
Well, I guess it.

Since I lazy to study started from the beginning of the year, didn't fully pay attention in the classes, didn't revise anything daily, didn't do a short and important notes, etc, so now I am suffering.

I am regret. But it is too late.
Time is just running away as I didn't appreciate it.

This is a big problem occur in human being, I think so.
Human being would just blame this and that.
And then, regret this and regret that.
Lastly, wish to return back to choose another road.
Is it possible?

LOL.
sound like 'The Road Not Taken' from Form 4 literature.
Yes, I am trying to express it.

This is true.
We cannot take both road and force to choose one road as well.
Sometime, I ask myself that am I choosing the one best and suitable...
Am I choosing a wrong path?
My answer is I don't know.
I just know that study Science in Form 5 is better than commerce and art, ain't it?

Now, I am wrong.
Three of the Science subjects are worse than Mathematics subjects, ie, Modern Mathematics and Additional Mathematics, Account as well.
In conclusion, Mathematics is better than Science.

Luckily I have taken Account in SPM.
Or else, ... ... XD!
If I didn't take Account, I'll be hard to catch up when I be in college...since I am so0o lazy.
Although I not as good as those who get 1A and 2A, at least I get 3B. [~satisfied~]
[Four students from Science stream have taken Account in SPM, they are Kah Kah, Tze Mun, Song Ern and me. We never study Account in school, not as CLHS and PCGHS. We need to cover ourselves. So, I have satisfied with my result.]

Many of my friends said that I shall be in commerce stream.
Hahah.
Maybe, but I never regret. [this is the most important, agree?]
Know the reason?
Aha, just because of...
While I was in Form 3, Science and Mathematics were not bad. [I am not praising myself.]
p/s: seriously I was not bad in Mathematics since I was young, Science just interested on it.
Well, since I got A's for these two subjects in PMR, so my dad asked me to study Science stream.
Honestly I am not a guai kia who like to follow and listen to parent.
But, I take their advices.

Why not I give a chance to study Science?
Why not I give a try to study Science?
I could study whatever I like after Form 5 what...
still have many paths to return back what...

I had given myself many reasons and excuses to study in Science stream.
LOL

Yup. I don't think I'm wrong.
It's possible not to continue Science after Form 5.
It's possible to change to commerce or whatever, as well.
Right, readers?



Post on 06 Nov
2340

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

October event

During Oct, I had attended two activities which launched by Leo Club of Georgetown Mutiara. Example, 'Sing For Joy, Smile For Life' and 'Think To Be Green'.
Sadly, I couldn't attend 'Health Screening' and 'Sch Edu Tour' T_T
Further post will be updated after I get the photos.
ps: asking Si Sheng to send me the photos indirectly~ =p

Time is running away. Without any permission.
It stirred up my nervous mood...
I am afraid.
Started to step in November, which mean SPM is nearer.
No more fun mood...but a lot of stress and pressure~

Would I get the result that I wonder?
Would I study hard for it?

Seriously I no.
Seriously I got no confident to even think of that.
Seriously I haven't pay full attention on it yet.

*Darn it.

SPM will be started on 18th November until 14th December.
How many days left?
15 days left... ...
I clearly know that SPM no more as easy as PMR.
But what to do?
I just lazy and hate it!

I will not be attending activity lately.
Dad had blamed about that. (ps: niam a little bit luu~)
sigh~
There are many fun activities will be launched by GTM during November.
Arrr!!!



Post on 3rd Nov
0545